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~ 11 of September. R.i.p :/

Hellow guys :'] .
I've almost not been sleeping tonight, i've been sick & stuff.. So i ditched school. Now im watching Saw 2, and its pretty scary, but i'll survive ^_^ . Im not gonna blog so damn much today, as i did this night. Buuut..

~ 11 OF SEPTEMBER, today. And its 7 years since the 'death' of thw twintowers were. Im so sad for the people who stood the people near, they who died. I don't know what they feel, or even do on this day.. But, i know how hard it is to loose someone you really really loves !! I lost my mum, on my birthday, last year (December 01th, 2007). And i still cry everytime i think of her. I can even remember what she said to me.. "Evelina, When you grow up, you'll get a wonderful man, and many kids". Just a few months after my mum was dead, i got my son, Sammy. He is one of the reasons why im here today. I try everything to lie bad thoughts behind me, but its hard. And i hope you guys understands me. You guys who haven't lost one of you're parents / both. should be really happy. Because... Parents is the most important 'buddys' you have around you. You may think that.. It is really embarressing to bring you're mother, or youre father in shopingsenters, etc. But later, when you grow a littlebit more up, you'll understand that what they are meaning. They just want you to grow up in a lovley world, just as what my mum wanted with me. But also one thing is clear ; The world isn't fear. Just remember it !!
11.9.08 16:52

~ New layout, but read this.

Okey, now in the last time i've only changed the layouts on the blog. But now, i've figured out that im goung to fix the whole site, before the weekend, because than im traveling home to France, to my grandmother :'D .
~ And guys ? Im pregnant again ;$. I took the test, and it were positive against me. But, im going to update this site very much, before the birth soo ^_^ . The baby comes in June , and Sammy are becoming an Big brother !! People thinks im too young to be a mother, but you know what ? I love the role being a mother. It gets me soo active. It drives me away for being drunk & having sex all the time. And you know what ?! Sex is not everything in this world.

You're life is about enjoying youre lifetime, to take care of them you really care about. I've learned alot, since my mother died. And you know what ? That is one of the hardest things in my life, which has happend to me. And since my dad became in the jail, i had to refresh myself, go through thoughts i haven't even thinked about i had.. But you see now, im waiting my second baby under one year. But damn you have to take grip, its not only only to have kids. I have them because i care about them, because they are a part of me. Like, before i got Sammy, i were like.. Very scared for that he didn't come to like me.. But you see now.. When you are pregnant, its this bond who is getting thighted to the mother and the baby. You don't know the unknown person yet, but you know that, this is you're other part of respect, love, fights, and so on. But, one thing is, that.. What i've learned, is that.. You wont come long in you're life, if youre just giving up. I were like, almost giving up, but damn not! I got Sammy, learned how to handle my life, without my parents.. And now im an alone mother, have a job. And, im lucky. Just the way as i am now ^_^ .
10.9.08 23:58

When you came into my life..

.. The world stoped turnin' around.. Yea, i kinda miss my boyfriend now.. I've almost never seen him this summer, but okey. Welcome to my newest blog, on http://myblog.de. I just figured out that i had to make one, because everyone elses has. And i've choosen self to write in english, because than many others know what im writing ;- ) . Now im hoocked on "Scorpions- When you came into my life" , and you should really take time to listening at the song, because the text is like, Amazing : o. And yea, i haven't decided a layout yet, so i just chose one now. Just for have one ^_^. I'll try to be updating this blog very often, but people.. I can't promise anything yet :b. Now i've been sick for 4-5 days, only threwing up and so on, so im not that kinda person who wants to do so much, when im sick .. ! tomorrow or Monday, im going to a store, for buying a 'pregnancytest', just in case for being sure if im / or not pregnant !! Soo, just look around people, and please write in my guestbook ^_^

~ evelinamontez.
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